It has been a while since I have written here so I figured I am due for an update. Things are going pretty well lately. Things with J are great as always. He stayed the night Thursday with the dogs and we had a pretty good time. We always have a good time together though. J has been going through withdrawal from an antidepressant because his insurance decided they would not pay for the dosage anymore, so I wasn't sure how things were going to go since he had been pretty moody before Thursday. Apparently he was either pretty much done going through the withdrawal or he was just that happy to see me. Chances are he was about done with the withdrawal. Anyways...he got the giggles pretty bad that night. We laughed a lot more than we usually do, which is typically a lot. We had some really great bonding time together. And of course the sex is always amazing. This time much more intense than usual. It was the first time I ever had an orgasm from oral sex. I have never made so much eye contact with someone during sex. He's always looking in my eyes. We had some good snuggle time too. That's our favorite. And typically I spend some time tickling his back because he really likes it, but he also did the same for me this time. Its the second time he's done it, and I know that part of the reason he does it is because he knows it turns me on. At one point we were sitting in his car smoking and the windows were all fogged up, and he started drawing a picture on the windshield, so we ended up drawing a little martian together on his windshield that kinda looked like the martian from the flinstones. lol. Being with J has been amazing and I truly could not imagine being with anyone else. He's so much fun and we really mesh well.
On another note...I am very close to getting surgery. I took the psych eval again thursday and I passed it without any problems. I only have 2 support groups to attend and I will have everything done for surgery. All the main important stuff for the insurance to agree to pay for the surgery is done, so now I just have to wait for the Dr to submit the request to the insurance. Once the insurance gives the approval I will get to make an appt with the Dr and get set up for surgery. I can't wait to get the date set and get started on all of this. I really want to get it done so I can finally move forward. I'm scared to death of getting this surgery, but at the same time i'm excited and can't wait to get it done. This is a huge change in my life, and I just want to get it done.
