I'm starting to think that regardless of what actually went on (which I want to know the truth, and i deserve to know the truth) steven and I won't end up together again. He's talking to this other girl and seems like he's chose her over me unless i prove myself to him. Why should I prove anything to him when he can't guarantee we'll be together. He can't guarantee he won't get with this girl, and he won't guarantee he won't sleep with her. I can't see myself being okay with this. Not that I have the right to be not okay with it. But I'm just not okay with it. I think I should just give up continuing with my moving on, and just take care of me. I talk to him again and my stomach problems are acting up again. I am probably going to have to get that scope down my throat to see if there is anything visibly wrong with my stomach. I have all the symptoms of stomach ulcers but i don't throw up coffeeground stuff. I just throw up all the time. I'm nauseous constantly, among other stuff.
Anyways, I really just need to know the truth about what happened before I can decide on anything. I honestly would rather give Mike another chance than deal with all this shit.
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