So....I have an offer on a date for Tuesday. I don't think I'm ready for it honestly. I'm so scared. I can't imagine being with anyone right now. I just don't have that desire. I'm too vulnerable.
But yet I sit here thinking, why the hell not....He moved on, why shouldn't I. It's just a date. Nothing serious. No guarantee there will be anything happening. Could just be fun to get out of the house with someone new, could be exciting. I'm just so scared, it shouldn't be like this. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I'm not supposed to be so afraid of even considering being with a guy. This just isn't right. I hate it. I really do. I deserve to be happy and to be able to find a decent man who will treat me right. Its like there are no real men out there anymore.
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