Okay so I have been thinking about that date. And part of me kinda wants to try the date over again. It didn't exactly go the best, but I feel kind of like the ex got too much into my head and impaired my judgement.
the best part of the whole date was when he was walking down to the porch and I opened the door and when he saw me he dropped his phone. I'm not really sure why but for whatever reason it makes me smile when I think about it. But idk.
I figured out how to filter my email so that the ex can't bother me. it doesn't just go to my trashcan anymore. it now sends him a msg saying that the address no longer exists. So he shouldn't be able to contact me anymore.
So in time I'll be able to get him out of my head and be able to move one with whomever it may be. I don't know what the future holds anymore, but at least I can find out with a clearer head. He just gets inside my head so bad that I can't function anymore. And now I am free.
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