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I like him a lot, I really do. I have for many years. E....we will just call him E. He lives a few hours away, but we've been friends since I was like 16ish. He has always been just as real as the first time we started talking. We text pretty much every day now, when he's able to text me he does. I sometimes wake up to goodmorning texts from him. And it honestly makes my day. He's a lot like me. We have a lot of the same views, but we are both scared to death of making that step. We are both afraid of getting hurt. He told me last night he wants to tell me he likes me he wants to open up and tell me how he feels but he is scared. So I just told him no pressure and to tell me when he is ready. I'm not going anywhere. We've been friends for this long, that won't change.

He was telling me about how he goes with his family every year to Maine to stay on the ocean and such for a week. They will be going again in May of 2012, and told me I could go if I wanted to. If things progress with him and I then I probably will. It would be fun.

So change of topic. I started my list of affirmations, but I also started a list of reasons why I want to lose weight. I am going to read it everyday so I can train my mind to be more motivated.

Nothing else exciting going on.