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He has thought about me from day one. that was like 10 years ago. I have thought about him almost always. Its one of those he's a great friend but i never in million years thought he would have felt for me what i always did for him. I would often put it aside as I felt he would never want someone like me

He said he wishes he had the guts to tell me why its so hard for him to tell me how he feels about me. and wishes he could have the guts to really tell me. but he said he has to build the guts to do it and will call me and tell me. I'm super stoked!!!! I want this. but I'm scared of the same thing he is. He is afraid that once I see him in person won't feel the same, but i believe i will still feel the same. I've known him for a long time. there are no red flags ever. he's amazing. he really is. hes real.

I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but this is something I've wanted since I was like 16 or 17 ish. I'm not entirely sure when we first started talking but its been a long ass time. Its like one of those maybe a little bit of a fairy tail lame-O tv shows or movies where that thing happens just in a more modern way i reckon. anyways. i'm out.